I am finally, FINALLY doing my June Favorites!! Altho it’s already Juy 9th but whatevs. I’ve been so busy with packing lately because I move out on saturday. I don’t have that much stuff but I do have a lot of favorite books and songs last month! :)
My heart first broke when I was a freshmen in high school. I remember it was a Thursday night, and I was lying on the couch at 1am, silently praying not to get caught by my mom crying, because my room was too close to hers not to hear. The radio was on and David Archuleta was belching lyrics about being a little too not over you, and I lay there crying and crying because for the first time, my heart was breaking over a boy, over my best friend, who made it clear that very same day that he wanted nothing to do with me, and I couldn’t stop thinking how I could come to class the next morning having to seat next to him because of course, he was my seat mate. The next day, my eyes were swollen and red and my homeroom adviser asked me what was wrong and the next thing I know I was excusing myself to hide in the bathroom. I was young, and naive, and I know you’re thinking stupid (don’t worry, so am I), but up to this day I have never cried or felt pain as much as I did and felt back then.
My heart broke for the second time two years later when I was a junior. I was seven months in a relationship with my boyfriend when I started feeling suffocated and asking myself, “Is this all there is?” It was a Saturday in July and well past noon because I remember it happened right after my CAT class. I broke it off with my boyfriend and was fine, that is until three days later. I started missing him and asking him if he wanted to get back together with me and he kept saying “No.” over and over again. I realized what a huge mistake I’ve made. It came to a point that I actually threatened to end my life. It was the first time I had suicidal tendencies and the next day after school, I went to a church far from home without talking to anyone. I knew my mom and my entire family was probably worried sick but I didn’t care. I stayed put, crying and praying over and over asking for Him to take the pain away. My best friend eventually found me, the same guy who my heart broke over first, duly noting how a year ago he told me he loved me when I finally got over him. I came home well past midnight, and I cried myself to sleep. The following morning, my “unsentimental” brother woke me up, telling me he loved me for the first time in years, and my mom took the day off, took me to the mall and bought me whatever I asked, including a full set costume of what later on was my intramural’s muse costume. I stopped crying that day and got over it two weeks later.
So you see, I’ve only ever experienced two heart breaks over the years. And truth be told, I’m patiently waiting for the stream of heart breaks I’ve yet to experience. Because that’s when I know it was real. That’s when I know that even though it ended up breaking me, for a few moments in my life I was able to be brave enough for love. Because honestly, if it’s not gut wrenching. mad, passionate, excruciating, crazy and painful? It’s not even worth it.
— (via thelovewhisperer)
omg you're reading slammed. it's like one of the cutest book ever. :3
I finished it last night! That and Point of Retreat. Super touching & adorable! Colleen Hoover is amazing. Gave it 5 stars on goodreads. :) Nasa This Girl na’ko ❤
Sorry to bombard you with questions this late (or early I guess) I'm trying to write a story but I really don't have firsthand experiences when it comes to love. I wish you could be one of the people I choose to critique my prologue but I'm kind of shy. I hope your new story goes well. I know it will.
Hey it’s fine! I like these kind of questions. To answer your q a while ago I think it’s because mas takot tayong mawala yung tao, kaya we choose to forgive. Or sometimes, pinapatawad natin sila kasi naiisip natin lahat ng tamang nagawa nila kesa pakawalan sila over one mistake. :)
Where'd your story on Wattpad go? :( I want to read it again.
I deleted it. :( I’m actually writing a new one. I have the plot na & characters but I’m not sure whether to write it in english or filipino :(
How do you manage to keep your bag lightweight? Do you not bring your books? :O
I have a few books lang naman and I usually leave them in my locker but this year I’ll be living in a dorm na so it’s not that bad if I carry a few books. :)
Hi! I love your blog so much. 7 days na lang papasok nko as an AB Communication Arts student. WOOO WISH ME LUCK, ATE <3
Hello thank you!! ♥ Ahhhh you’re going to love being a CA student! Good luck & have fun! :)
14 days til school starts again, the countdown is on. I’m so confused at what to feel, happy fr new beginnings or afraid of legendary terror profs or sad that my nights of staying up and lazing around all day is over. But school shopping’s my favorite kind of shopping and getting new stuff is something I always anticipate when nearing a new school year.
You wrote a story on Wattpad right? I really really want to write on so badly but I can't seem to come up with the right plot. The lack of personal life (and lovelife) experiences isn't really helping either. Any tips and/or suggestions?
Use your imagination! Like, what you’d like to happen or take inspiration from other people’s personal experiences. :)
Hi, can you suggest good movies to watch? any genre will do thank you :)
Hi! I love romcoms e. Hope that’s okay. Friends with Benefits, Sweet Home Alabama, Just Like Heaven, The First Time, A Cinderella Story & Wild Child are my faves :)
Do you have a boyfriend? what's the sweetest thing someone did to you? :)
None! Happily single. :) Hmmmm siguro last Valentines. I was pretty happy naman that day, went on a date with a friend (girl yon loool). Tapos around mga 9:30pm nagready nako matulog kasi inaantok nako, biglang nagtext yung best friend kong guy, sabi nya pupuntahan raw nya ko antayin ko raw sya. Edi antay naman ako. Tas mga 11:30pm, nagtext sya nasa labas raw sya ng bahay namin, so lumabas ako tas may hawak siyang bouquet. Nakakatuwa kase naka uniform pa sya tas may dala pa syang tarpaulin (pang campaign nya since running for SC yata sya or something). Late na uwian nya non and busy sya pero dumiretso pa rin sya sa bahay para lang bigyan ako non. Super sweet. ❤